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Sora's mostly just another kid at the Carnival to Lambert: they've mostly interacted either when Sora was feeling mischievous or feeling down, so Lambert doesn't have much of a sense of who he is beyond that. He has a vague notion that Sora seems homesick but resigned to being here at the same time, but he doesn't usually care to pry beyond that, considering it business he probably shouldn't get into.

He's not sure where the whole 'Keyblade' and 'Hero type stuff fit into what he's seen of Sora. He doesn't really line up with his mental image of what someone who calls themselves a hero is, and it's kind of weird! But that's probably in a good way -- most self-proclaimed heroes Lambert knows are kind of assholes.

yeah they mostly think he's a waffle

At minimum she'll be telling him he has to tackle the obstacle course while a dragon. (Especially if it means falling over himself and she can bring other people to watch.) You have to work! You have to push past the unfamiliarity and learn to move like that!

...She does think he's lazy, I gotta say, but almost everyone's lazy to her.

and then lambert burned down the obstacle course when he got stuck because he's a 45-foot dragon, what do you want from him?????

he trains off-screen a lot! depending on the hours she keeps they may or may not run into each other. he does balance work with play a lot better though :D

JULIEN HE'S SO DISAPPOINTED.

Truthfully Yuya doesn't know much about him except that he's got a weird bird body and works in wardrobe, he seems like a nice guy and all? Which just makes being angry at him easier, because what the hell. Yuya's very big brotherly to little kids and protective, so that Julien totally failed to keep Reira safe after they were warned about the danger and then roundabout admitted he actively helped her sneak out is so irresponsible to him.

He doesn't hate Julien but Reira's really important to him and he sees her safety to get home as his responsibility so he's like. Not going to want to trust Julien with looking after her or other kids now.

oh boy here we go. okay.

so first things first: lauren thinks susan is fucking amazing.

i think it's important for us to remember that because going forward? we're going to be talking about a LOOOOOT of baggage.

so let's go back. way back, way way back to a time before lauren and susan are on there on. to a time before susan is even in the picture. lauren is a half-elf kid who is shy and the subject of ridicule amongst children his own age for being the awkward kid that he is. lauren doesn't care about this because he has his mother and father and his mother NEEDS him because without him she cant talk to other people. he feels special and important and he's pretty pleased with his life even if the other kids never let him play medieval fantasy soccer.

here comes susan, a kid who is nearly six years his junior. that means 6 years lauren spent being an only child with his home-making mom giving him practically 100% of her attention constantly. i think it's easy to see where i'm going with this. the jealousy is intense. lauren is not getting all the attention any longer and doesn't feel as special. the things he wants to do are ignored because mom needs to pay attention to the baby/ baby this baby that. it's irritating as hell and so one day as 1-2 year old susan is toddling his way down the stairs lauren gives him a shove.

sounds pretty terrible doesn't it? because it is! you can't just go around pushing freaking babies down the stairs! but you know what, jealousy is a pretty BIG motivator for lauren even as an 'adult' so of course as a kid he gets angry and does something stupid without thinking about it. honestly as soon as he does it he feels bad. it's not susan's fault being a dumb baby after all! and lauren doesn't like hurting people. period.

family discussions happen. lauren gets in trouble but his feelings of being ignored get brought up at the same time and his parents reassure him that they still love him so maybe everything would be okay. and he did LOVE his brother and he felt really bad about the whole stairs thing so he tries to be a better big bro to prove to his mom he's a super responsible and mature and important kid. as he turns 7 lauren is actually maybe starting to mature into an okay kid.

then the magic hits. susan is two when he uses mage hand to pull a toy out of laurens hands and take it for himself. lauren tattles immediately but instead of the dumb baby getting scolded his mom starts to give him praise? what the hell! lauren goes to his dumb room to play with his other dumb toys and ignore his whole dumb stupid family.

i've thought about this a lot. could you tell?

it's at this point when lauren really starts to doubt his self worth. yes, at the tender age of eight lauren is already having confidence issues. kids his age are mean. his brother is young and only just learning to talk. his dad is a craftsmen and working and his mom finally knows enough common to be able to shop for groceries on her own so what the hell is he supposed to do? he guesses the answer is help with watching susan, but susan is a baby that can someone a fucking floating hand to do whatever the hell he wants it to. lauren can't compete with that, he can't even pretend like he's in charge and mom never punishes susan because he's "only a baby" and lauren is supposed to be the more mature one.

but he thought he was being mature. he thought people DEPENDED on him. and now it feels like he's not really necessary at all. that sucks of course he gets better at being patient with susan as he gets older but the feeling of being sort of unnecessary sticks around until he's 9/10 and his dad starts teaching him the tools of the trade. which he likes because it makes him feel like he is useful to someone and he likes getting to spend more time with his dad who is a lot more like him than his mom is but BETTER. his dad is a huge role model for him. if you asked him what he'd want to be when he grew up he would say he wanted to be his father. that's fucking cheesey but you know how kids are.

thats when DISASTER STRIKES. you know the deets. family dead village destroyed susan and lauren are one their own. and lauren fucking realizes he actually has to be the adult now. if anyone was going to make sure susan was okay it was going to have to be him and like hell he's going to let the last of his family die. no way. he is going to prove to his mom AND his dad that he can do this, that he is mature and responsible and totally important AND useful.

this is pretty much the end of lauren's life as a kid. he learns a lot of stuff real fast because he has to. how to survive in the wild. he learns hunting, trapping, foraging, how to survive in the 'real world' and it's honestly thanks to his teacher that either of them survive. lauren learns magic so he can protect susan even better than before. susan hardly even remembers his mom and dad at this point. to susan lauren practically is his parent. lauren never felt that way. every step he took towards being a better caretaker was just another way of proving himself, to himself and to others.

so the fact that susan's magic problems only increase as he gets older? it feels like a personal failing on susan's part. lauren tried really hard to 'raise susan right' but still he feels like he failed in a lot of ways, not because susan is a bad person, but because he thinks his parents would have done everything better. magical outbursts, angry outbursts, not wanting to live in a proper house. these are all things susan does that make laurn feel like a shitty brother everyday and lauren has absolutely know idea what a shitty thing that is for him to do to his brother because he thinks susan is basically perfect and fun and he wouldn't change anything about him for the world. does he realize what a huge contradiction that is? no. not at all.

the thing is it wouldn't matter what susan did or who he was, lauren would still find some way to blame himself for not being good enough. it's not really a reflection of susan at all, but of himself, and i think it has a lot to do with how these two keep misunderstanding each other. i feel like if they could just both be honest about how they felt they would have a much stronger relationship for it. but lauren can't because he just actually doesn't have the vocab for it and susan just won't.

it's weird to think two people could be so close while still being unable to actually be emotionally honest with each other but thats where they are. i think it will get better though, for both of them. they both still have a lot of growing to do and they aren't so messed up that change is insurmountable.

all in all lauren loves his goofy ridiculous over the top dramatic dumb little brother and he wouldn't have it any other way.

does Lauren know about the whole "Strange spent the first few months of his carnival stay certifiably bonkers" thing?

because, you know.

that explains a lot

oh shit bro-

uh obviously to be smarter about it and not try to run it like he would with his normal shape? ugh everyone but Scout is dumb, clearly.

Yeah, it's nice he has the luxury to play. It's a good thing Scout's actually pretty good at like not getting a broken leg or something because that kind of enforced idleness would kill her? here this is relevant, I honestly can't play her as intense as this for long but fortunately she's a bit more chill day to day

WE MADE IT! WE'RE NOT CAPTURED YET!!
AND YET...
WE LOST SO MANY ALONG THE WAY.
IS IT TOO EARLY FOR CELEBRATIONS?
SHOULD WE HAVE A CEREMONY FOR THE FALLEN?
THE FALLEN WHO COULDN'T JUMP BACK UP THE BUILDING, I MEAN.
SINCE THEY WERE LESS-THAN SIX FEET UNDER LIVING STATUES.

scout and papyrus' conversations tend to start with one expressing concern about the other... and somehow wind up talking about death, and the differences of the realities they live with, for a bit? scout seems to humor his questions and strong opinions with equal politeness, and clearly they're both equally willing to run around the roof and walls of a giant mansion, defying gravity like a couple of reckless assholes. are they slightly morbid jock friends?

Someone please save this child from all the fae bullshit. Because a lot of Strange's actions towards Steven are colored by the fact that this kid has been put through so much fae bullshit. And he's not someone like Childermass, where he can cope with all the fae bullshit or someone like Strange who just dives headfirst into fae bullshit. Steven 100% got a bad rap and has to deal with the bad rap and that's just something that Strange wants to try his hardest to change.

Steven is one of the few people who Strange sees as a kid, unlike how he sees some of the other younger carnival members (Rita & Susan are magicians, 9S is a coworker, etc.) Which is interesting, because this means he'll actually think through his actions and conversations with Steven more than other carnival members, doing things like trying to comfort him in the pre-manor radio post or trying to distract the conversation from Portland's everything when they were in the Summerlands. One of the things that Strange is just AMAZINGLY self-conscious about is the fact that he doesn't want to turn into his father, who was the literal worst and was terrible with children. The fact that Strange thinks of Steven as a kid means that he cares what Steven thinks about him and is trying his hardest to work his way through their conversations so he doesn't torpedo it and so Steven thinks that he's not a garbage fire of a human being.

He also cares more about what Steven thinks about him because heeeeey, who has two thumbs and lingering guilt over trying to kidnap him in Portland, it's Strange.

Anyway, this is Jonathan Strange we're talking about and he can mess something up just by breathing, so for all of his 'trying to think things through' and 'trying to be a decent adult to Steven' like half the time it's gonna fall flat.

hey bby

/breathes on

how on earth did these two go from hating each other's guts to obnoxious comedy relief team-up, it truly is a cr mystery for the ages.

Because yeah! Strange actually likes Peridot, despite the fact that they got off on amazingly the wrong foot. She's energetic, enthusiastic, and also wants to learn things (whether about magic or about manners), which is a big ol'plus in Strange's book. She's willing to explore the unknown and do ridiculous things and there are unicorns in this forest, FUCK YEAH we're going to find a unicorn. She's got the same sort of maniac energy that he does so put the two of them together or on the same idea and it'll just be a terrible feedback loop—which of course, Strange doesn't realize, but it is something he likes.

And really, for all of Strange's insistence that magic is better than robots, her robots and her creations are something that Peridot loves. And it's obvious that she loves that and loves tinkering with that. She loves robotics in the same way that he loves magic. It's something that Strange recognizes and empathizes with, that feeling of having something that's yours to the point where it's a lot of your identity: Peridot's the engineer, Strange is a magician.

Also, there's the fact that Strange likes arguing. Like, he really likes arguing, and there's not that many people here who he can argue with. Peridot's already proven herself to be a good arguing buddy in the dumb robots vs. magic debate, she'll also prove herself to be a good arguing buddy for all sorts of other dumb debates.

hey b...ro...????

what's up

you cannot contain her

'Play' really just means 'drink.' By all accounts witcher training was pretty brutal so now that he's made it it's mostly about keeping himself in fighting shape. |D

Lambert would probably say Jedi training kind of sounds like they squeeze puke and sweat out of you over the course of a decade where they do it the same amount in witcher training, only in the course of a week and by force-feeding you the bad kind of potions.

He would definitely approve of the whole 'survive through pure spite' though, considering that's how he survived becoming a witcher. :|b Good job, Scout! Let the rage flow through you!

HEY THERE

hi... sis?????

hey there buddy

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HE DOES NOT.

hello child

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