This one might be long, but it also might not, surprisingly. So skimming over canon, we know that Yuuya was arguably the second person to ever earn Reira's affection. She sought him out for comfort, actually running from her room to his even-and who knows how that'd have gone if the door was LOCKED still. But the thing about her in series attachments is that her development also focused very heavily on learning to not always listen to them. This is something that, go figure, has backfired significantly now in the Manor. It led to her underestimating the price of disobedience considerably, and now she's paying it, watching others pay for it more, and over all coming out of this deciding that maybe Always Listening To Orders is the better idea after all.
She really needs to learn where the line on obedience can sanely sit, but that aside. Yuuya is someone she values, but also someone she now pities, largely due to the whole Zarc matter. While she has no doubts about his personal strength and dedication to others, she feels that his attitudes toward Zarc are frankly nonsense. He knows, she's certain, that she can feel the emotions. So it's baffling to her that he can't just understand what she means when she says that Zarc is sorry. There's just a level of self-deprecation that she can't understand in there, and the idea of just excising and killing the part of you that's done wrong sits with her horribly.
Perhaps because she feels that her own mistakes can't be dealt with that way, or that any mistakes can't be dealt with that way. Not everyone can just cause a bunch of shit and cut that part out. Yuuya might not have obviously done that willingly, but he arguably was able to 'do' that, in the form of being allowed to exist apart from Zarc.
So tl;dr there, she..sort of feels that Yuuya wanting Zarc dead is a way to just get something 'rid of', to cast it aside, forget about it, etc. Rather than actually moving on in a healthy manner. Or at least, what she feels is healthy. But Reira does love Yuuya-she's grateful, albeit guilty, to be alive, not just post contract signing but also with the 'kidnapping' at the ball. She may have been irritated with his contract after all, but as I've said before she's never blamed him-nor even the Ringmaster, for determining that killing Zarc would be the quickest solution.
She does feel that she has more a head on her shoulders than he thinks though. Don't coddle her, Yuuya! Don't treat her like she's weak, she's totally not! But also, she'll find you when she needs that talk, and needs that hug-because she does know that sometimes things are too much, and sometimes she won't understand everything, and sometimes....
....She does need you. As much as she needs her brother, she needs you.
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She really needs to learn where the line on obedience can sanely sit, but that aside. Yuuya is someone she values, but also someone she now pities, largely due to the whole Zarc matter. While she has no doubts about his personal strength and dedication to others, she feels that his attitudes toward Zarc are frankly nonsense. He knows, she's certain, that she can feel the emotions. So it's baffling to her that he can't just understand what she means when she says that Zarc is sorry. There's just a level of self-deprecation that she can't understand in there, and the idea of just excising and killing the part of you that's done wrong sits with her horribly.
Perhaps because she feels that her own mistakes can't be dealt with that way, or that any mistakes can't be dealt with that way. Not everyone can just cause a bunch of shit and cut that part out. Yuuya might not have obviously done that willingly, but he arguably was able to 'do' that, in the form of being allowed to exist apart from Zarc.
So tl;dr there, she..sort of feels that Yuuya wanting Zarc dead is a way to just get something 'rid of', to cast it aside, forget about it, etc. Rather than actually moving on in a healthy manner. Or at least, what she feels is healthy. But Reira does love Yuuya-she's grateful, albeit guilty, to be alive, not just post contract signing but also with the 'kidnapping' at the ball. She may have been irritated with his contract after all, but as I've said before she's never blamed him-nor even the Ringmaster, for determining that killing Zarc would be the quickest solution.
She does feel that she has more a head on her shoulders than he thinks though. Don't coddle her, Yuuya! Don't treat her like she's weak, she's totally not! But also, she'll find you when she needs that talk, and needs that hug-because she does know that sometimes things are too much, and sometimes she won't understand everything, and sometimes....
....She does need you. As much as she needs her brother, she needs you.